Occasional Leaks

 After the ug results where I wasted no time to blame my parents for every misfortune to appear at my doorstep- they have now withdrawn and left me to make the all important next step. Now it's going to be entirely on me. Lots of chatter and input distract your mind - some validated, others not. The stress of making a decision from which will have repercussions can be overwhelming- makes me not wonder about decision paralysis! Regardless I now must press on- Medicine is annoying no doubt - endless notes, references to be done, seems like you're doing very little for the patient, chronic unsatisfied patients. Surgery, ortho is out just because I absolutely cannot stand trauma. Paediatrics has even lesser pay than Medicine Radiology doesnt have as much of professional growth (I might eat my words later). Dermatology will require me to be active on instagram. The others are out just because of the perceived low status - (my mind is filthy and needs validation - float me) - patholo...

 What do you do when you feel trapped? Like rick grimes stuck in a military talk, I wish I could hear the radio burst into static - and show me the way out. My biggest gripe is about the binds and seat leaving penalties. Restrictive, narrow minded, preventing exploration. Why should I know what I want to do right now? Why can't I venture out and figure it out for myself?? Take all the time I want.

 I regret not having enough info - although it's never too late, here is how I would go about it if I could do it again - Year 1 and 2- get basics right- towards end of year 2 - watch boards and beyond vids and take notes Year 3- Do Uworld, NBMEs, schedule and take step 1 (Bunk clinical postings- not of much use) Year 4 - apply for clerkship for the next year- UNC,UAB, UIC ,Mount Sinai etc Internship- take break and go for clerkships(or sneak in between your final year), volunteer and ask to be associated with research projects -hospitals, iisc, tata memorial etc Start doing Uworld and complete step 2 Start with applying process with US -LORs, personal statement and interview - while also being a research fellow at mayo etc  Match 8 years after joining MBBS on j1/hib - hib requires step 3 Do fellowship at uab (visa waiver job?) Be on h1b till the backlog clears or visa lands by *cough* 90 day fiancé route Branch indecision- I wish I was made of sterner stuff- that I was more a...

 Hi folks Just finishes my neet pg and got a rank of 509! I'm incredibly grateful and happy- particularly because the pg exams were a big source of worry for me (I think even in first year- I've kind of always been a worrier -ha ha) So here is what worked for me- Aravind arora for anat- just know the nitty gritties Biochem and physio- boards and beyond lectures- gold! Patho- vandana puri maams book, Robbins for images, ramdas nayak Pharm- sharma and sharma, kdt for classification only FM- narayan reddy synopsis more than enough  Micro- apurba shastry - gold! Psm- park + vivek jain Ent- dhingra Ophthal- Utsav bansal- soch -gold! Medicine- Davidson + george Matthew's Surgery- bailey and love Paediatrics- suraj gupte(wow for general peds)+ ghai OBG-obs-JB sharma, gynae-shaws Orthopedics- alok Sud-has some mistakes tho bit not altogether bad SARP- Aravind arora Practicals- case series books always more helpful Additional resources- Boards and beyond lectures,  First Aid ...

Ask about attitudes to the word 'doctor' amid a pandemic and most people would be quick to associate them with words like 'Brave!' or 'Warier!'. But I don't feel either of them-in fact I don't want to feel anyone of them. How bad is it that I feel exhausted just by hearing about what we're supposed to be doing in the hospital. Most of the time I feel like I'm the only one who isn't here all excited by disinfectants blood etc. etc. But this time I think I'm not the only one put-off by mentions of ventilators and oxygen saturations....