Terrified

Ask about attitudes to the word 'doctor' amid a pandemic and most people would be quick to associate them with words like 'Brave!' or 'Warier!'.

But I don't feel either of them-in fact I don't want to feel anyone of them. How bad is it that I feel exhausted just by hearing about what we're supposed to be doing in the hospital.

Most of the time I feel like I'm the only one who isn't here all excited by disinfectants blood etc. etc. But this time I think I'm not the only one put-off by mentions of ventilators and oxygen saturations....        

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